If tomorrow comes

5 before 5

2011-05-16T05:48:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i received a shock news about an ex-college mate,

He suffered a disease (infection) and just like that.. he return to the Creator..

He is 24 years old.. Al-Fatihah to u Syafiq..

Never said that we are too young to die,

To Allah we belong and to Him we shall return,

and Allah knows best

5 before 5:

your youth before your old age,

your health before your sickness,

your wealth before your poverty,

your free-time before your preoccupation,

your life before your death.

(p/s: i'm now a happy and proud non smoker, thank you Allah :) )

Not Anymore

2011-02-16T02:15:00.000-08:00

Let me be another person to write about quiting smoking,

I know it's boring, i know it's typical, but it's very important to "us",

I've relapse several times, and it all happened because i kept it to myself,

I didn't make research, i didn't prepare enough, and my will to quit was not strong,

Before last month:

I think I enjoy smoking,

I think cigarette is my best friend,

I think smoking can calm myself,

I think....

but the truth is, i continue to smoke because i'm scared about 1 thing,

I'm scared and can't bear the withdrawal symptoms,

and so i'm trapped in Law of Addiction,

and it repeated again, again and again

And so i've decided i will stop feeding the nicotine monster inside me,

I will endure this withdrawal symptoms for the last time ever,

It will be bloody hard but IT CAN BE DONE,

Some of my friends already quit and for me they are superman,

(I want to be a superman too)

Cigarette u are not my best friend,

U only destroy me slowly but surely

I can't find any reason anymore

I cant be with u anymore

Ya Allah please forgive me for the wrong i've done,

Man is an imperfect creature and thus shall always wrong..

Ya Allah please guide me, ya Allah please help me..

"You think you love to smoke and you think it is so important to your happiness, but when you quit (and I know you will), you will find out that all that happiness associated with smoking is a lie. It’s a cheap carnival trick. It is nothing more than smoke and mirrors."-credit to Lesly

how long, how many?

2010-10-25T21:38:00.000-07:00

how many roads must a man walk down

before u can call him a man?

how many rocks must a TBM bored

before it reach 44km?

Granite, granite and granite

humid, warm, dusty, noise, water

>1km overburden

fault, lineation, soft rock, thin overburden

God willing, everything will be alright

oh, even though u're a Totally Boring Machine (TBM)

but the truth is, you're so COOL..

GNH

2010-03-06T02:34:00.000-08:00

a.k.a gross national happiness,
are u happy?

saturday night fever, but obviously not at redlight district

how do we look?

cheeky gf

my everything

where a good man goes

2010-01-21T03:05:00.000-08:00

uhuk uhuk

i dont know how long it's been

but it feels like months

i cant bear this pain no more

last 2 week i was in ICU

the doctor said i'm inches away from death

there is cure but it's very very expensive

because i'm poor and dont have no personal insurance

they dont want to treat me

yes, money money money

good deeds come second

luckily a hot lady come to the rescue

she's willing to sponsored my operation

God bless her

what a beautiful heart and a wonderful mind she has

and finally the crooked doctor saved me

he gave me lots of steroid,

add a bigger brain and recover my old memories

yes i'm back, healthy and and never feel better

ah tong~ ah tong~ ah tong~

be more responsible to your Acer!!

-(tajok xde kene mngene langsong)-

the modern day

2009-12-20T03:01:00.000-08:00

the rich become insensitive
the poor become faceless

most of it is true Prof Gil..

kisah askar bapok

2009-12-03T04:33:00.000-08:00

satu mlm di Tmn Len Seng

askar tersebot sedang memandu sambel mengorek2 idong

dibawa bersama 3 perot yg mengeloh menunggu kedatangan nasi

alkisah dlm perjalanan tersebot

muncul seekor labah2 berkaki 9 (konon mutant)

beliau merangkak di atas dashboard lalu melekat di dlm cermin kerete

askar tersebot tiba2 membawa kerete ke kiri ke kanan

terdengar hon2 dan caci maki warga kota yg sentiase x ckup mase

si serabai berkata "rilek la wei, die da kt ujung cermin tu, meh aku halau"

"eee!! jgn2! nnt die jth bwh kene i, tatottt!!!"

dgn penoh gelabah askar tersebot membelok lalu berhenti tercungap2

"aish bdk ni, ntah ape2" kate pakar Teh Tarik di blkg

"ok2, jap2, aku nk gi blkg, u all tolong i, tolong.. ee.. ee.."

lalu si serabai dgn macho menggengggam labah2 terbot, dibelai2, lalu di lepas kn di luar..

abes cite..

hm.. akibat drpd "pembelokan" askar bapok tersebot, kerete menyimpang ntah ke mane, nk pusing bkn main jaoh, lapa bkn main lagi, x sangka ini hasil product "leftenen muda" daru UM..

-tamat-

dlm gmbr: si serabai, pakar teh tarik, askar bapok

no wonder

2009-12-01T18:13:00.000-08:00

it's getting late, like other KL-ites i drive like a madman, only this time it's around residential area, then up ahead i saw a bird on the road, look like trying to eat some bread lying on the road, i'm getting close but it still doesnt move, then suddenly- a cat ran out of nowhere, trying to catch the bird, i screamed and there's nothing i can do about it, bamm! i ran over the poor cat with my kancil..

i hold my breath, i look at the back, the cat is still in one piece and running towards a house.. i'm grateful but i still worried it will limping, hai.. that evening when i passed by the same road, i saw the same cat sitting "washing" it's body, look like still in a perfect shape, alhamdulillah.. i can't imagine if i killed somebody's cat, hm, no wonder people said that cat has 9 lives.

-i really miss CK, why do u need to go.......

Mane macha, am, john, toy, jared, ijat, faris, lalok, syidi??

2009-11-14T14:51:00.000-08:00

got another 2 paper left, 2 final paper in UM, wow, time really goes by, just now after supper i listen to Muse new songs and old Butterfingers songs, with headphone i borrow from my roommate, and it really "feels" good, yes.. it's been a while, i really miss to jam with my friends again

Matt Bellamy, Thom Yorke, Julian Casablancas, Emmet, Alex Turner, Chris Martin, James Blunt, etc, pls don't play with guns, don't overdose drugs, don't sleep while driving, bla3,

keep on rocking the world in many more years to come :)

-teringat terbatok2 time jam/nyanyi lagu Stolen

"What in the world what it's like to be stolen!!??
I was left in the dark feeling sorry and thank me!!??"

UHUK3, adeh.. tq..

From the muddy bank of KL

2009-11-11T11:57:00.000-08:00

rage..

hit full throttle

u want to left it behind but they just don't

red light..

but red bull keep u going

the psychology of color

radio..

classical or hardcore

lower or upper your adrenaline rush

silence..

can be peaceful or uneasy

but when ur mind is muddy logic is not there

starve..

major contribution of negativeness

feed your mind after u feed ur stomoch

take a deep breath..

have sabar/patience

syaitan is with u when u're angry

astaghfirullahalazim...

Job Review

2009-10-30T03:31:00.000-07:00

occupation-student

what students do

-learn the rules then break some

-come to class half asleep half a shower?

-make friends and then eventually some enemy

-hooliganism in class

-what to eat/ where to lepak after class

-learn friends signature

-cuci cuci mata

-ping pong before dinner, snooker before supper, jamming before subuh

the turning point of career

-sleepless night before exam/test

-the art of copy and paste

-exam slips(money, attendance, luck)

-promotion, in other words-retired

the favorite worst nightmare

-become a regular

-demoted

job rating

-7 star/5 star

-love and miss by many

-it doesn't matter how it started, it matter how it end-

make reading a culture?

2009-10-23T04:11:00.000-07:00

there's one government ads which show we malaysian, instead of just wondering around, gossiping, enjoying music from mp3, etc, we should read a book whether we're in a bus, car or train

hm, i started to be cynical

well when i was in primary school, when the kidnapping case of many kids around malaysia a hot topic, i was riding public bus to school everyday, to add some icing on the cake, klang those days (maybe until now) is some kind of Frank Miller's film Sin City. 18 top la, 21 top la, ku wo jai la, punk, skinhead, etc were very popular "culture". but as a "local hero", i think i can change the world by my own way-i introduce them to mari lah membaca, jdkn ia budaya kita.

so everyday i brought at least one comic book to school (still a book), when i was at the busstop, i read, when i was in the bus, i read, when the bus conductor want to collect the ticket, i read, when i'm crossing the road, i cannot read.

i did the same thing for more than 4 years, without any fuss, without any whine, yes i've done my part.

Klang is Klang, the peoples, the crows, the swarming immigrants, the cendol, the leng lui, hm, i dont know they change or not, but all i know is my city need me and i need her, FYI that "heroic' action cost me my eyesight, yes, make reading a culture but dont read in a moving vehicles.

p/s: terase mcm hero cite The Spirit plak

"we're too young to fall asleep

too cynical to speak

we are losing it can't we tell?" -Radiohead

Padah remaja shoshial

2009-10-16T01:05:00.000-07:00

kucing akhir zaman

crdt to the owner/uploader/photographer/rapist/victim/kojel/etc

OBSES

2009-10-13T09:52:00.000-07:00

ketika pkl 6 time jam tgh haywire

aku termenung macam orang gile

nk pasang kaset player da jd ntah ape2

so ape aku bwat aku perhati sini sane

eh kenape aku obses dgn pantun ni

hm..

sblah sane ternampak minah kodi budget hot isap rokok

kt tepi ade uncle yang seronok cungkil gigi sambil tgk rear mirror

kalau tgk kt busstop plak byk nurse2 mude yg ajak main mata

adegan plg menghiburkan? ade brother sorg ni yg tgh masyuk korek idong

yezzaa.....

ntah kenape tibe2 teringat Kojel kakak aku

pantang aku kentot x berbunyik dlm kete x bgtau

kalo tgh drive sambil korek idong disekehnye aku

"eee.. pastu tonyoh2 kt handle.. ko nk rase bergegar dagu!!??"

try2 jd suke2 jd habit jd obsesity

mandai2 je bwat terms sendiri

yeah aku pon x tau apsal jd camni

x kesah la obses ape janji jgn msk pusat serenti

lantak lah

terase mcm nk bwat pengakuan berani mati

br lah nampak aku ni teguh jati diri(gile kodi)

aku pernah obses dgn..

-Wardina Safiyyah

-baju Kiko & Kikilala

-rambot "M" Nick Carter Backstreet boys

-daily burger KFC

ntah apsal aku still obses dgn..

-Avril lavigne

-"mengorek" sana sini

-tido bepuluh jam

-bulu dada acap

tp yg pasti aku akan teros obses dgn..

-Chelsea fc

-rock & roll

-comic & anime

-kucing mahupun cicak

p/s: aku baru tau burger yg paling happy ialah burger-mbira

Pantun Sedapkan Telinga

2009-10-12T10:32:00.000-07:00

tadi di tengah bandaraya

aku menyusuri lorong2 kota

mencari sesuatu penuh upaya

teguhkan hati jauhi dari dosa

3 tahun berlalu aunty masih disana

senyuman manis juga bicaranya

melihat aku terpinga pinga

lalu ditanya awak cari apa?

the smiths, stone roses dan nirvana

nirvana band yg dpakse menjadi mainstream semestinya ada

yang laen trend sudah tidak mahu menerima

tp kalau band metal petik jari saja

hati lapa perut hampa

berjalan kedepan langkah x bermaya

apa budaya rakyat malaysia

open house sinisana mari jamu selera

tp di sini tiada makan percuma

ku tanya Topio bigfoot suka makan apa

wajahnya berubah lantas mengeluarkan kata

banyak bertnya menyusahkan org saja

lantas kami lupakan apa saja di kepala

melintas jalan terpandang kereta Juara

kalau lah ade Cube ajaib di Kompleks Pertama

hendak saja ditransformerskn ia menjadi maggi asam laksa

setelah menempuh cabaran yang tidak seberapa

akhirnya papa grill mama chop menjadi destinasinya

itupun kerana pekerjanya manis2 belaka

mengambil order Topio hatinya berbunga bunga

grill tidak chopnya tiada

yg diorder hanya nasi ayam melaka

ape nk dikate kami org asia

berbudi berbahasa berbudaya itulah prinsip kita

santapan tersedia mulakan dgn berdoa

malas basoh tangan bakteria riang ria

ape nk susah sudu didepan mata

tapi kalau da alah bisa tegal pun jadi biasa

ketika asyik meratah ayam melaka

terlihat makhluk Tuhan yang sedang meminta

bulunya lebat berwarna jingga

kepala senget telinganya sebelah sudah tiada

simpati dipinta taktik gediknya yg diguna

mari mari jangan tengok saja

ku hulurkan ayam dimakannya begitu saja

"terima kasih daun keladi tuan hamba sungguh kacak orgnya"

-kata kucing itu walaupn beliau tidak terkeluar apa2 kata.....

p/s: sayangi lah telinga anda, kalau sudah tiada sengetlah kepala dan minda anda

sekian dan terima kasih...

Atong Kindaichi Case 1

2009-10-11T07:33:00.000-07:00

buruburuburu~~(den den mushi- one piece snailphone)

haa...? hm...

oh it's already morning..

Yoda was sleeping on my stomoch

goal!!!

aiyaiyai, Palermo just saved Maradona's ass

look like Mario is celebrating the goal too

meow!!! meow!!! meow!!!!

CK this is not mating season

kring kring kring~~

poor Saleem, must miss umi very much

ok, get up now Yoda

go clean yourself like Dolly,

have u ever taste urself lately?

AAAAhhhhhhhhh!!!!!????

what happen!!???

oh my........

what happen to the tissue paper..

who's "reading" the newspaper..

why are they all over..

the kitchen look like hell..

my lunch(fried fish) swims into the wild..

chili and kuah lemak magic spell..

and in the sinks i can smell..

yeah... i can confirm it..

semue muslihat telah aku bongkar kan..(gaye tgn Kindaichi)

dont need no CSI..

those culprits cannot hide..

just open the cage wide..

no dinner for Yoda and CK tonite!!

..................................................................................

(nota kaki)

in the sink=sape x knal bau kencing Yoda?

the newspaper=CK is a literate cat

the tissue=Yoda berak x pakai cebok

the swimming fish=CK can open the microwave

Carefree~ wherever u maybe~

2009-09-13T20:58:00.000-07:00

Sunrise shine on another lazy sunday

Yawn yawn it's time to sleep

As expected last night Chelsea cruised again

Zero goal conceded Cech couldn't be happier

Ah a poor rat was tempted by the raisins

Now left its droppings all over the cage

A proper burial will soon be made

If it wasn't caught maybe someday it'll become a lawyer(?)

Life's like that- said the wise man

Only those who took the chances will succeed

Vacant soul and u'll end up like Sid Vicious

End of this poem/message/crap/whatever

U're swearing the writer for
wasting 2 minutes of ur life reading it..

Cinema-skopedia

2009-09-08T14:03:00.000-07:00

-Megan Fox wannabe :P -

why cinema?
-young couple "tradition"
-weekend activities with family
-while skipping school/lecture
-nice sleeping chair
and the list goes on...

although once there was a period of time when cinema lost their popularity to pirated cds and many single building cinema gone bankrupt, but now people already fed up making those taiko rich, fed up watching the wrong movies (the cd cover is A but the movie is B), fed up reading retarded subtitles (e.g: bloody hell- berdarah neraka), etc, so they download it from the internet. haha, but civilized person like me will go to the cinema no matter what happen (what's the definition of civilized?)

i remember once my older sister told me she's dying to watch movies again at cinema, because it's been six busy years raising her kids and her kids is too young to go to the cinemas. i said why not let us/somebody watch her kids for a while and u go on watching movies with ur spouse? but she just grinned ( Chena poyo syg sgt anak, hehe)

for me? Sakaki Makio taught me to cherish the so called Youth, hm, i'm a movie freak, i kind of like to memorize their quotes (spptnye byk hafal quran), to get some inspiration, to curse lousy actor/actress/director, to ask movies trivia to others (drive my gf crazy), and bla3.

well many things happened in cinema
-sometimes u laugh to urself watching a horrified lady during horror movies
-sometimes u went out from the cinema with ur mouth wide open (dagu krem)
-other times u want to blasah the annoying person sit behind u

what happened to me?
-watch alone but bought 2 tickets, i must be possessed or something

-the cinema was pack with kids, the movie is cars, their loud noise pissed me off, i go to sleep until the end, later i watch it back (cd), i was disappointed, Lightning Mcqueen is so cool..

-my mom and i must be wearing 2 or 3 layer of shirts (last time it's too cold), halfway till the end, we were sweating as if after jogging 10km, they probably turn off the air-con

- my retarded friends "dont know there's a toilet at a cinema", he pees inside a big gulp size cup, almost full, left it under the chair, @#$%^!!!!

- i was nausea, guys can't pregnant, but macho guys who's nausea can only laugh tersipu2, i hate u 3D glasses... (sorry asya kmu gelak sorg2)

- 1st time watching taiwan ghost stories, i cursed a lot (dlm ati), after the movie, one of my friends (1st time went to cinema) said-"best gile ye cite td", ya rabbi... God help me....

anyway, when u're young and still have the passion of youth, and want the bad taiko to give us free sample of movie dvd(who knows), jom wayang!!

may the force be with u

2009-07-29T16:36:00.000-07:00

it's a hard time
tuck in ur stomach
breathe slowly
look around with eyes like Austin Power
dont forget to have some Mojo~
know ur target
think fast, but dont act so fast
aim high but not so high ( @ so chai~)
figure out a win-win solution
u dont do this often
but u know it's worth
hm...

but then again
u don't fell so right
why are there so many people?
are they stalking u?
what're the kid looking at?
oo,what's with those sorry eyes?

to do or not to do?
15 minutes past and it's getting closer
ur hands are sweating
u bite ur lips

is this it?
malaysia boleh!!
eh, now it's one malaysia!!!

"yes can i help u sir?
err.... Trauma?
"owh ok... 2 person?"
aaaaa....? aaa.. yup..
"ok, 2 person 22rggt"

................................................................

u drive back home,
u're a litttle bit scared
with a big confusion
hm, nasha aziz is always pretty..
very2 shagadelic, hehe

but why do u pay for two?
u watch alone la..

procrastinater

2009-03-27T14:26:00.000-07:00

...................fish fish fish, where r u..................

i look around
there's no watch
there's no specs

i rub my eyes
sometimes it's dark
sometimes it's bright

but then it doesn't feel right
i clean myself
i pray to God

urgh, i'm starving
what's the menu again?
nevermind, i'll figure it out later

is it really 8 0'clock?
will prof John be late?
all i know is he's always smiling, a lot..

6 months and counting
my baby kancil i'm sorry
global recession seems to effect me

i say i'm sorry mama
i never meant to hurt u
tonite i WILL clean the kitchen

and now i got myself a ****ing B
i started to hate everyone
most of all, i hate myself for hating them

better late than never?
figure out what to do with time that is given to u?
urgh, i don't want to lick my own spit

u do know better right???

fear of sleep

2008-09-03T14:47:00.000-07:00

weird things do happen:

-kat asrama lelaki kampung pandan
tgh sedap tidor dgr suara gadis menangis, makin lame makin pilu + hiba, tp aku dgn roomate makin gelisah + berkecamuk, mane dtg pompuan pkl 3 pagi ni? ape bende yg sedih sgt plak sampai nangis camtu skali? argh... slow2 kitrg merangkak keluar, makin dekat makin kuat bunyik, intai punye intai, xde plak bayang2 manusia, tpi ade byg KUCING? kurang belacan pny kucing...... gadoh same sendri.... Tp suare cam pompuan...

-Kolej ke-11
pgi Khamis yg 'aman', tersedar dri tido roomate seblah tgh kejut subuh, diringkaskn cerite aku terase sejuk smcm, sedar2 cume slimut je yg ade, tu pun cover $%^&* aku saje, cuak ade, tension lg la ade, aku soal siasat sume org kt ctu, bile bwat final conclusion-disahkn diorg sume x bwat. abis tu SIAPE/APE e????

-Baru baru ni..
blaja mcm2 psl USSR vs US time cold war. satu ptg tu tibe2 aku mimpi jd thnn perang, da bbaris bramai2 nk kene tembak, no way out, anytime bole blobang kpale, aku cepat2 bgnkn diri, TEBABO! punyelah kuat bunyik, tapi bunyi petir, bkn machine gun, aku bingung... tp syukur... umur pnjg lagi..

p/s: aku masih seorg 'sleepaholic'

gagaga

2008-08-09T22:38:00.000-07:00

haha, umbrella & mardy bum
hope u guys are entertain
sorry lame xde coretan terbaru

when it starts, when it end

2008-05-04T00:45:00.001-07:00

It's the end of my 4th semester, that means the next semester I'm going to be a third year student in this very university, University of Malaya. I'd still remember what my father said when i told him that i've been admitted here and he was like "Woah, it's the best university in Malaysia and now you're going there? I'm really surprise man.." haha, sounds like he's teasing me but i totally understand what he's trying to say, but if he said:"Congrats son, you really deserved it judging by your attitude and your results" haha, then i'm really gonna piss off a bit.

i remember those days when i'm still wearing white uniform and green pants. i was(am?) lazy, inactive, rebellious and always giving the 'honor' to my parents to came to school/hostel to sign some 'contract/deal' about my behavior. But the worst part of it - i was nearly going to be kicked out of my school when SPM is like just 2 more weeks to go. what kind of misbehavior that i've done those years? it's really 'nothing' serious...

hm, talk about every end or opening of every semester, i don't know what kind of tradition i'm accidentally into but i've got to say, bad things always stick with me during those time. now let me elaborate in point form:

==>opening of semester, form 1
-seniors bullied me(i was ugly and weak), teachers hated me(i was stupid), friends don't wanna be with me( i was a disaster...)

==>end of semester, form 5
-SILA RUJUK LAMPIRAN DI ATAS

==>opening of semester, PASUM(matrix)
-i got skin disease all over my neck,hand,etc. i was bloody bald(bloody PLKN), i was bloody black, where are u dear self-esteem...........

==>opening of semester 1, (1st yaer bachelor student)
-all 4th college students hated me, the thing is- i was SICK and no one's believe me, i didn't join those orientation stuff, because of my absent they were all in trouble, they even hated me more because i was PASUM student (this world is full of hatred and discrimination.....)

==>end of 4th semester...... it's hard to explain, or maybe nothing that u guys can understand, but i think i'm really out of my mind now

hm... all these sad stories NEVER make me cry, hahaha, but make me crazier and 'macho-er', yet i'm not a Sicilian that never forgive and forget so don't worry, i've forgive most of the character that involved up there (some even become my best buddies now).

This july I've already make a plan to take a trip to Australia to visit my Chie Chie and Mama, please pray for me that things will be alright because July is the opening of a new semester ... :) PEACE

honey

2008-05-04T00:43:00.000-07:00

honey..

i'd invest you all my life

since i walked on God's earth till the end of time

u're everywhere, u're anywhere

u're always there when i need u

i can see u when i hit the highway

i can touch u and u confort me

i can feel u and i cherish the moment

but it's a shame we can't be forever

we seek no happy ending but the journey that matter

instead of blessing, people curse u... people curse us...

they always call us names when we're together

other than me, no one ever please to see u

when it comes to revenge, u're oh sooo lethal

just squeeze and roll u with this very fingers

u're in ur greatest form

and when i aim u at 'foes'

HONEY!! THEY'RE ALL PARANOID!!!

hahha, hope u guys are entertain, short stories about my honey a.k.a taik idung...

also a caution not to mess up with me, haha

dream

2008-05-03T22:20:00.000-07:00

that day u woke up in a beautiful dawn,
ur cat was there smiling at u,
the birds were singing happily
the breeze was so comforting,
u make urself a cup of coffee,
then u walk to the bedroom and slowly open the door..
................... the bed was neat and no one's there,
no one's here.....

where is the good old days?

years gone by and lots have changed
many have come & go, sometimes they stuck with u,
accidentally or expected,
they depend on how u deal with those situation,
good & bad decision; better or worst,
the only choice that left is just keep going on

harder as it may seems, going on is no simple task,
yet some things just won't go away,
the crave for happiness, nicotines, drugs, etc,
the paranoia of a tragedy,
lonelyyy people, baaaadddd mariage,
this endless series seems out of ur hand,
like bruises that won't heal,

'easy to start, hard to let go',
how hard it is God only knows
stick forever in this misery is not an option,
make urself a wish,
dream about a happier tomorrow,
dream about not being left alone,

u must never forget to dream...