Not Anymore

Let me be another person to write about quiting smoking,

I know it's boring, i know it's typical, but it's very important to "us",

I've relapse several times, and it all happened because i kept it to myself,

I didn't make research, i didn't prepare enough, and my will to quit was not strong,

Before last month:

I think I enjoy smoking,

I think cigarette is my best friend,

I think smoking can calm myself,

I think....

but the truth is, i continue to smoke because i'm scared about 1 thing,

I'm scared and can't bear the withdrawal symptoms,

and so i'm trapped in Law of Addiction,

and it repeated again, again and again

And so i've decided i will stop feeding the nicotine monster inside me,

I will endure this withdrawal symptoms for the last time ever,

It will be bloody hard but IT CAN BE DONE,

Some of my friends already quit and for me they are superman,

(I want to be a superman too)

Cigarette u are not my best friend,

U only destroy me slowly but surely

I can't find any reason anymore

I cant be with u anymore

Ya Allah please forgive me for the wrong i've done,

Man is an imperfect creature and thus shall always wrong..

Ya Allah please guide me, ya Allah please help me..

"You think you love to smoke and you think it is so important to your happiness, but when you quit (and I know you will), you will find out that all that happiness associated with smoking is a lie. It’s a cheap carnival trick. It is nothing more than smoke and mirrors."-credit to Lesly

GNH

a.k.a gross national happiness,
are u happy?


saturday night fever, but obviously not at redlight district


how do we look?



my everything

where a good man goes

uhuk uhuk

i dont know how long it's been

but it feels like months

i cant bear this pain no more

last 2 week i was in ICU

the doctor said i'm inches away from death

there is cure but it's very very expensive

because i'm poor and dont have no personal insurance

they dont want to treat me

yes, money money money

good deeds come second

luckily a hot lady come to the rescue

she's willing to sponsored my operation

God bless her

what a beautiful heart and a wonderful mind she has

and finally the crooked doctor saved me

he gave me lots of steroid,

add a bigger brain and recover my old memories

yes i'm back, healthy and and never feel better

ah tong~ ah tong~ ah tong~

be more responsible to your Acer!!

-(tajok xde kene mngene langsong)-

no wonder

it's getting late, like other KL-ites i drive like a madman, only this time it's around residential area, then up ahead i saw a bird on the road, look like trying to eat some bread lying on the road, i'm getting close but it still doesnt move, then suddenly- a cat ran out of nowhere, trying to catch the bird, i screamed and there's nothing i can do about it, bamm! i ran over the poor cat with my kancil..

i hold my breath, i look at the back, the cat is still in one piece and running towards a house.. i'm grateful but i still worried it will limping, hai.. that evening when i passed by the same road, i saw the same cat sitting "washing" it's body, look like still in a perfect shape, alhamdulillah.. i can't imagine if i killed somebody's cat, hm, no wonder people said that cat has 9 lives.

-i really miss CK, why do u need to go.......

From the muddy bank of KL

rage..

hit full throttle

u want to left it behind but they just don't

red light..

but red bull keep u going

the psychology of color

radio..

classical or hardcore

lower or upper your adrenaline rush

silence..

can be peaceful or uneasy

but when ur mind is muddy logic is not there

starve..

major contribution of negativeness

feed your mind after u feed ur stomoch

take a deep breath..

have sabar/patience

syaitan is with u when u're angry

astaghfirullahalazim...

Job Review

occupation-student

what students do

-learn the rules then break some

-come to class half asleep half a shower?

-make friends and then eventually some enemy

-hooliganism in class

-what to eat/ where to lepak after class

-learn friends signature

-cuci cuci mata

-ping pong before dinner, snooker before supper, jamming before subuh

the turning point of career

-sleepless night before exam/test

-the art of copy and paste

-exam slips(money, attendance, luck)

-promotion, in other words-retired

the favorite worst nightmare

-become a regular

-demoted

job rating

-7 star/5 star

-love and miss by many

-it doesn't matter how it started, it matter how it end-

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