Not Anymore

Let me be another person to write about quiting smoking,

I know it's boring, i know it's typical, but it's very important to "us",

I've relapse several times, and it all happened because i kept it to myself,

I didn't make research, i didn't prepare enough, and my will to quit was not strong,

Before last month:

I think I enjoy smoking,

I think cigarette is my best friend,

I think smoking can calm myself,

I think....

but the truth is, i continue to smoke because i'm scared about 1 thing,

I'm scared and can't bear the withdrawal symptoms,

and so i'm trapped in Law of Addiction,

and it repeated again, again and again

And so i've decided i will stop feeding the nicotine monster inside me,

I will endure this withdrawal symptoms for the last time ever,

It will be bloody hard but IT CAN BE DONE,

Some of my friends already quit and for me they are superman,

(I want to be a superman too)

Cigarette u are not my best friend,

U only destroy me slowly but surely

I can't find any reason anymore

I cant be with u anymore

Ya Allah please forgive me for the wrong i've done,

Man is an imperfect creature and thus shall always wrong..

Ya Allah please guide me, ya Allah please help me..

"You think you love to smoke and you think it is so important to your happiness, but when you quit (and I know you will), you will find out that all that happiness associated with smoking is a lie. It’s a cheap carnival trick. It is nothing more than smoke and mirrors."-credit to Lesly